Have Fun Losing

curiosikey Gaming and Streaming DK30 Spring 2021 3 1

Description

I don’t like losing in games, and it really gets me down. I want to work on that mental fortitude in a safe environment so I can handle setbacks in situations where it matters more. I’m planning on playing lots of smash, of which I am particularly terrible. When I last quit, I had a 5% win rate so have lots of opportunities.

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curiosikey 5 years ago

I found this image which embodies me feelings

Jokes aside, it’s hard to create those negative feelings now that I’m seeking them out. I think a part of it is fatigue and hunger, but I barely touched it once during my sessions when it was late at night and I didn’t get to delve into the experience because work was a bigger priority. I’ll try to find opportunites where I can really grind so I can get out of my comfort zone.

Estimated Timeframe

Mar 2nd - Mar 30th

Week 1 Goal

Week 1 I want to play at least three online matches, three times a week. Ideally I’ll play in times where I can sit down and run into feelings of frustration, helplessness, and that sense of “I’m not worthy of love” as day9 put it.

When I do get into that negative headspace, I will write down what is going on and how I feel. I don’t want to come up with solutions yet, just really get a better sense of it. Usually I run away from these bad feelings so I don’t understand them yet.

Week 2 Goal

Week 2 I’m going to keep up these play sessions, but I want to decide on a strategy to attempt to address it. I’m thinking of celebrating my opponents plays, which has helped in the past, but it’s not a solid solution. I want to write about how it fails during this week.

Week 3 Goal

In this week I want to look at what failed last week and try adjusting its weaknesses. I can’t give specifics here because I don’t know what it fails at yet. Writing down the issues of this week’s adjustment is the plan again.

Week 4 Goal

The final week I’ll take everything I learned and make a final adjustment. By the end I may not have solution, but I hope to know myself better and have tools to help deal with stress that I can take with me.