Building Back

Day 4 (October 22)

Nothing really spectacular happened on this day. I worked a early and long shift so when I got home I was pretty pooped and changed into some comfy clothes and binged some Day9 drafts on Youtube to unwind! I will note that my anxiety was pretty low because I was so tired that I wanted to just relax. Overall a pretty good day!!

Day 3 (October 21)

I have realized that I’m really bad at keeping track of my daily progress lol. Nonetheless it’s nothing to beat myself up over so heres some progress that I made!! My best friend Elliot got back into town from a visit in Michigan so we hung out practically the whole day!! They told me all about their trip and the places the went and the stores they frequented. I asked so many questions and we just chatted a bunch! Nothing really special happened this day, We just had a very lazy day and watched some cartoons and hung out, which was very much needed rest!!

I did find my mind wandering a bit and I had a short panic attack due to my own over thinking and castrophizing. However, I was able to calm down very fast and Elliot really helped me ground myself into the present moment. It really made me think about my one week goal and the progress that I’ve made recently!! Before I would have let my panic take over and it would have ruined my night, but with all of the progress that I’ve gone through; It was nothing but a little blip!

Day 2 (October 20)

I had an incredibly spontaneous day!! I messaged my buddy Taylor on a whim who lives 2 hours away from me to ask her if she could give me a tattoo! she is an apprentice who is in the process of going full time at a tattoo shop and her work and style is absolutely stunning. We did the piece while sipping on some Starbucks and gossiping about our lifes and everything going on! We even did a little photo shoot of my tattoo (Photos coming soon, but I caught a little cottage from Little Women because it’s one of my favorite pieces of media)

I have been feeling really good about my ability to reach out and be present in the moment! I asked my best friend Zach if he would love to get dinner and go on a little hike! We share so much in common and it was so lovely to get to see him again because it had been a long since. (He even noted that I sounded like a different version of myself and it was so validating to hear lol)

All in all, It was an amazing day!! I have been putting in a lot of effort to make use of the time in the present day instead of thinking about what could be in the future or what should have happened in the past. I can’t control those things, But what I can control is how I act and decide here and now in the present moment!!

Day 1 (October 19)

Forgot to post an update so I’ll be making two today!! On the 19th I decided to go to a café that I’ve always wanted to go to but just never went! I was so glad that I went because it turns out that one of my friends was in the area and we were able to catch up over coffee and pastries! I told him about DK30 and if it was ok for him to be mentioned and included in my project and he said that he was super pumped!

We talked about the change happening in my life and we swapped stories and advice that we thought could really help each other!! He gave me some really good advice, the type of advice where when you hear it, It kinda just clicks in your brain and you just can’t stop smiling. I took his advice and instead of just rotting in my room for the rest of the afternoon, I hit up some other friends to hang out!

This is a really big step for me because I find that I never reach out to people, It’s always the other way around. Being able to take the initiative for even just a second was really helpful in building up my confidence in small baby steps! Overall I had a great day, which have been few and far between recently. Very proud of myself!!